Taking Control

Life is full of uncetainties, so taking control is the way forward...

Since my last 'post' many things seemed to have occured. There was the trauma over whether me and my dearest should stay together (which we have decided to do, so don't panic my readers of the world I am still in love. Sickening I know) but the whole thing was a total heartache. I felt horrible for a day and a half, which doesn't sound like much but when your crying the whole time; time has a way of going slower. I ended up explaining everything to an unlikely fellow who ended up being a amazing friend, he text my dearest unbeknowest to myself and told him if he loved me he would come see me. Which he ended up doing; we talked about everything, that we were both feeling off in general and he apologised about hurting me with how he's been recently, and now we have decided to listen and do what the other needs even if we don't need it ourselves. I think it's really working as we seem to be getting over what has happened. Time will tell I guess, fingers crossed as i do care deeply about him; more than he knows (I think).

 

Moving on as that is now in the well deserved past. This week I also went to the chinese new year celebrations, which was really fun as everyone was on a real high (legal high that is, not drugs or anything like that). China town was full of people which i've never seen before and I love the whole chinese culture. What made it even more entertaining was that my aunt dragged me through the crowd pushing people out the way as she went. See, I am of the opinion that you shouldn't push people out the way for yourself to take their place but my aunt isn't of the same opinion, she pushed like her life depended on it. It was embarrassing I was apologising to everyone she pushed. however it was weirdly fun to do.

 

Other than that I havn't done anything else with my week, but it's been such an emotion rollercoaster and I feel that there is light at the end of the tunnel so me. I know that sounds corny but with all the trash that i have had to endure i deserve something good for my fortitude, i think that maybe that is my Andrew (who is proberly throwing up if he has found this and read it). I believe in karma and i may have done something bad in my life but the world can't expect me to keep trying to make it right forever, i have tried my hardest to create a good life and in six months my life will truly be my own so i just have to wait out this current storm.

 

With all this stuff going on i have decided to try, at least to take control of what is occuring in the crazy life that is mine. I think that as long a try to do what is best for me and those that i care about i can't go worng. I hope...